My task to stay on program, drink my shakes, exercise and make it to the first goal is extremely important to me. It is just a milestone on this healthy life adventure that I decided to begin. Right now it is also taking much more effort than it did before, even though I am currently experiencing the positive results of my past dedication - cute clothes, less pain, more energy and feelings of vitality.
These struggles could be the result of seasonal/environmental conditions (my kids are home from school, I'm traveling more and visiting friends and family, I'm working from home and am cooking and around food most of the day.) The challenges are also part of the normal struggles associated with any big behavioral change. On an hourly basis I am reminded that by choosing to take the "healthy highway," the sites, experiences and scenery are new to me. The culture is new to me, and I'll need to patiently learn new ways of living. The hazards and seasons will always be there, but I will be handling them differently in this "new place."
Am I travelling the road perfectly? No. I've had some bites and had to get back on track. When I first chose to take a bite, I was filled with disappointment and self-doubt. That was a reaction rooted in the moment, however when I zoom out and look at the bigger picture, these small transgressions have taught me how to live life as an imperfect person. I won't lie to you - it has been scary for me - certainly not because I have ever been able to attain perfection, but because I am now trying to be comfortable with and not give too much power to, my diet pitfalls.
Every time I overcome a cheat or better yet, say "no" to myself, I am building a little more confidence that I'll be able to handle the flat tires and obstacles that are a normal part of any trip.
These will be the challenges of a lifetime, and I feel like I'm just at the beginning of learning how to handle them in a healthy way. I'm thankful for the "Zoom" right now. It's a helpful little tool.